Dear Ex: A Personal Journal Entry

Dear Ex,

Can I share something with you? 

Yes, I did fall apart after you left. And even though I knew I wasn’t going to fix things, how was I going to fix myself and show up for my life?

I knew this was the beginning of my self-discovery journey; it was about me taking the first step to healing myself and learning to forgive.

I didn’t know how to forgive you or even forgive myself for what I thought was a failed marriage. Sitting in a darker space created some awareness around forgiveness. I didn’t realize how forgiving you would impact our past, but I knew it would transform our future. I had to let go of shame and blame and start accepting where we landed.   

At first, I found myself to be so powerless, yet when I was in that dark hole of shame and despair, something powerful happened: 

I found the meaning of a glimmer.

A glimmer of light, a glimmer of hope, and a glimmer of self. 

All those glimmers illuminated an open space to heal.

Healing led to belief. 

Belief that I could heal myself, and that I had the power to find a space for YOU to sit in here with me. 

Together, yet apart, I thank you for the opportunity to find my best self, but also to notice yours. 

I have developed a path to move FOR-W.A.R.D:

W- Work towards the meaning of forgiveness

A- Address your emotions and learn how to process them

R- Release yourself from the emotional imprisonment

D- Discover how to create an open mind, so you can welcome growth and change